It was a decadent massage. Marma points, meridians, luxurious amounts of oil. Unfortunately, I spent most of it worrying about what was coming at the end of it, a different kind of happy ending.
Let me start from the beginning….
I was at the Chopra Center for Wellbeing in Carlsbad, CA. It was day 4 of their 6 day Perfect Health cleanse.
I’d done week long cleanses before. But I’ll be honest; they all ended on day 3; when I decided that Happy Hour with the girls would be more fun than a few more trips to the bathroom.
However, I had committed this time. I’d spent the last 4 days eating a strict vegetarian diet, drinking oil and fiber, popping every vitamin and supplement they handed me. My cleanse was on point, things were moving!
Today was the day, Netra Basti.
After that beautiful massage the practitioner picked up a hunk of dough, shaped like a donut. He placed the dough over my eye, with the hole directly over my eyeball. (Imagine doughnut binoculars.) I was instructed to close my eyes. Once they were closed he poured warm ghee into the dough openings.
The warm liquid felt amazing as he poured it on top of my closed eyelids. And then, he said “Ok. Now open your eyes.” Pause.
This is a moment when I am grateful for my strict Indonesian upbringing. “Not every thought in your head, needs to come out of your mouth.” The thoughts were as follows...“Hell No. F No. Suck it dude. Imma make you eat these dough butterballs” and several other unladylike expletives.
I took a deep breath and opened my eyes. The warm liquid ghee filled my open eyes.
When I was a child I loved to open my eyes under water. There was something magical about it, a new perspective. Everyday images blurred and quieted by the water. This experience, Netra Basti was similar. I saw shapes and colors through a pool of golden liquid. I spent a few moments taking my gaze to each side, looking in circles and then closed my eyes.
He skillfully removed the dough and the ghee and quietly left the room. I lay there silently and took in the experience. Thoughts came up; I acknowledged them and let them go. I ruminated on one particular thought for a moment though. How much time had I wasted worrying about this treatment?
I imagined the treatment going a number of ways, all badly. The most extreme was a Joker like practitioner maniacally pouring boiling ghee into my eyes, causing me to live the rest of my days without site. Forcing my rescued Pitbull, Sammy to become my seeing eye dog.
I waste a lot of energy on things that never happen. I have conversations in my mind, which never take place. I’ve imagined breakups, fights, and betrayals that never happen. Worry keeps me from living in the moment and enjoying the things that are right in front of me.
“Worrying is like praying for what you don’t want.” (Unknown)
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